It feels vulnerable to receive
I’ve noticed that giving is easier than receiving for me, and also for a lot of other people.I feel inspired to start valuing giving and receiving equal.I can see why receiving is harder: it’s vulnerable trust myself being worthy of receiving.To trust being worthy of the other person’s attention, kindness, care and love, is vulnerable.To trust being worthy of it, not because I was first giving a lot – that would be an exchange of love, attention and concern and that’s just fine – but because the other person wants to contribute in my life. To trust this without an underlying, half conscious feeling of guild or fear of disconnection… I want to trust the other person’s willingness to be there with me. I want to receive without being prepared for losing the contact or feeling unworthy of that abundant kindness. This will be my practice and it’s all about vulnerable trust. I love giving and when I do, I do it out of a willingness to contribute. Out of love. But maybe there’s also …